For the Romantically Challenged, like me

I wonder if I should just give up nowadays! I feel like I always make the worst choices when it comes to picking mates. I tend to put on my Rose colored glasses and try to deny the bad characteristics that they may possess. I tend to pick the same type of person repeatedly...possessive, jealous, psychotic, overly-dependent and insecure men. It's hard to know how people really are. There is the good parts that we show most of the world. Us on our good behavior, proper manners, good looks, clean and all. But then there is the real par of us. The one that has bad habits, may be dirty, or what-not. It's odd...I feel like I have not had one functioning, good relationship. I hardly talk to all my exes, as we finished on bad terms...Even with my ex husband, it's odd talking to him. I feel uncomfortable and outta place. Like I never really knew him, just an image of him. Or what I wished he could have been. It's funny how you can live with someone for a long time, and not even know them very well. How it's almost retarded that you can be married to someone for almost 3 years and never really know them, or who they were...Isn't that insane? Am I the only one who is in shock of that? I played pretend for almost 3 years and I learned that from now on I wont compromise myself for another man. They either take me as I am, or get the fuck out...simple, I think. So this is my bitching blog, about being romantically challenged. For not knowing how to function in the single world that is trying to date and all...Will someone hold my hand before I get lost, again?