Fantastic Fornicational Bliss

In times when one can become overindulgent and lazy, it's so difficult to have self-control. It seems as though I have forgotten what it is like to not have much. I forget to appreciate things and be thankful for all the goodness that is given to me. I live a blessed life. Not an easy one, but still blessed. My child and I have our health, a roof over our heads, food, clothes, and each other. I have a job, that always pays me. I have a stong family bond, and I also have a wonderful "boyfriend" (just cause I'm not in High school anymore I feel weird calling him a boyfriend..or lover or whatever...he's just mine, dammit!). He treats me better than I have ever been treated. Randy makes me feel loved, in a way I have never known, but always wished for. This was the thing that was always missing from my life. I did not feel whole, until now. I feel as though my life has purpose and meaning. I'm not just another single mom in the military. I'm Randy's love. And he is mine. It is wicked to be able to feel that. When we are together I can't keep my eyes of him, much less my hands. I love the electric current I feel when we touch. Oh, yesterday he bought a bed. Just for us. It's cute. I know he should have put it in his apartment, but I guess he figured I wouldn't wanna stay over there, with Gabe and all since I have his room and everything else at my place, so he decided to put it in my place "for storage"...isn't that awesome? It was nice to actually have room to move around on. It was the first time that we actually were able to have some space, and get crazy...lol...even though we really didn't. He is the best. At everything. He just is awesome. I am addicted to him, and everything he does. I want him with me always. I want to feel him, love him, hold him, fuck him, make love to him, kiss him: do everything all the time with him. I want to give him me completely, whole. Maybe that makes me overindulgent in love. But I can't help him. I hope my feelings never fade for him. For he is everything I have dreamed of and more. He is good to Gabe, and great to me. He is just what I have needed all my life. Happiness, wholeness, the end of my line to make a complete circle. I told him I would blog about his magic stick...and well he does have one. He is out- FUCKING- standing. I totally lucked out! When he comes around it's like he is the sun in my sky. The center of me. He just illuminates my heart, and lightens my soul. I feel so good with him. He makes me feel so damn good. It's addicting. No wonder I can't help but wanting him all the time! It's just he's sooooooooooo delicious! *sigh* He surprises me everytime..all the time. You'd think this shy boy from B.F. Ohio wouldn't really know what to do, you know? But man, was I wrong. He gets me going quicker than you can say, "Done"...and makes sure that I'm happy. Ugh, I can't wait to have him again. I couldn't imagine ever being with anyone else. I am glad I found my equal. I am soooooooooo fuckin' lucky. I don't know what I did to deserve such a great person, but I sure am glad that I did. I love you, baby.....and your cock......lmao.......*muah*